Hidden Scars

In the depth of my heart
there lies my pain
the pains I get when
my emotions turn jagged
and my inside tight

Waiting with wide eyes
my heart hanging in my mouth
hoping for kindness
like a child I longed for
soothing
Instead I get balked

Pushing back against pain
for so long
medicating with friendship
yet returns in my weaker moment
and devastating my mind

I’ve come to realise
what endless pain would be
When I would wake up one morning
realising I was dead
buried and forgotten by those
who are dear and close to me
but alive and kicking to strangers;
people who don’t give a damn about me

I have known pain
when I go to sleep with it
every night and seeing myself
being lowered in my own grave
when I scream to those
mourning and burying me but
no one hears my scream and whimpers

I’ve never been a person
to hold a grudge instead
seeking to understand the
motives of another

It doesn’t mean there
is no scars
only that I have no
forgiveness of them
to forgive I must first resent
or at least that’s my understanding
Perhaps that’s how I heal so well

Anyhow, perhaps my scars
are my road map
maybe I’d be lost without them

Published by The Pen

The Pen is the pseudonym for Ogunsola Ayobami Samuel, a native of Ibadan- Oyo State Nigeria. He graduated from Kinsey College of Education Ilorin, Kwara State where he studied English language and holds the Nigeria Certificate in Education(N.C.E). He is the founder of the"The Pen Creative World" an establishment piosed at connecting with different writers with the aim of working together to create positive change and to serve as watchdogs, social crusaders and commentators over sociel ills. It also serves as a platform where he showcase his writing skills. He is the Author of "The Prominent keys to Success, Who Are You?, Le Enclos - Anthology of poetry". His other works include; The Story of a Molested Teenage Girl, A Love Letter etc. He writes motivational, inspirational, and romantic stories and has earned the skill to capture the mind of his readers through simplicity. Aside from being a creative writer, he is a prolific content creator, copywriter. He currently serves as the Head of Growth, Operations and Strategy at "Dorothy's Writers Hub" an establishment piosed at inspiring and implementing solutions to problems surrounding the literary world. He is also a registered member of the "SprinNG" a platform for Nigeria writers. He hold unto his philosophy of not living his life to please anyone at the cost of his own convenience. His desire is to continue writing stories that uplifts and encourage. View more posts