Seeking For Peace

Sometimes I wondered if some things really existed in this world or we just believed they existed. Could it be that we think these things didn’t exist because we don’t always get what we want.

At times when we seek for love, we don’t usually get the kind of love we always dream of. In some cases when we get that love, we still feel like something is missing just like the last piece to complete a game of puzzle, without the last piece it’s an incomplete game.

Sometimes we are just like pawn in a chess game, we are sacrificial lamb to atone for some people sins. We never see it coming, do we loose our focus? Or do we trust others too much when we become too desperate?

We seek for happiness but we get sorrow, hardship, torment in return. Some one once said happiness is free but I always doubt the subject matter based on my instinct or should I call it my philosophy?

I decided to give the subject a second thought after a conversation with a friend when she said happiness is free but I need to make peace with myself to feel it. “Happiness is free but you need to open thy heart to feel its beauty” – Ogunsola Ayobami Samuel. I guess making peace with myself is a price I need to pay after all everything comes with a price.

When I was told I need to make peace with myself, those words hit me like a cyclone. I was like aren’t I in peace with myself? Telling me I didn’t have peace with myself is equivalent to telling me I didn’t love myself. But can a man not love himself? Then again I thought about it, if it could be because I never had the things I wish I had. Perhaps! Could that be the reason?

Like telling me to make peace with myself wasn’t enough, I was asked a shocking I never once thought I could be asked. You can imagine how shocking it could be to be asked “Do you know who you are?. Who am I? That’s a big question but unanswered one.

I realised that if I really want to be happy with my life no matter what the circumstances may be, I need to make peace with myself. I’m not doing good to anyone by making peace with myself, it’s something I’m doing for myself. People with different belief coexist at a place if that can happen among people then I should be able to make peace with myself.

But there is a question I can’t find answer to yet “How do I make peace with myself? I hope I get some clues from your comment.

Published by The Pen

The Pen is the pseudonym for Ogunsola Ayobami Samuel, a native of Ibadan- Oyo State Nigeria. He graduated from Kinsey College of Education Ilorin, Kwara State where he studied English language and holds the Nigeria Certificate in Education(N.C.E). He is the founder of the"The Pen Creative World" an establishment piosed at connecting with different writers with the aim of working together to create positive change and to serve as watchdogs, social crusaders and commentators over sociel ills. It also serves as a platform where he showcase his writing skills. He is the Author of "The Prominent keys to Success, Who Are You?, Le Enclos - Anthology of poetry". His other works include; The Story of a Molested Teenage Girl, A Love Letter etc. He writes motivational, inspirational, and romantic stories and has earned the skill to capture the mind of his readers through simplicity. Aside from being a creative writer, he is a prolific content creator, copywriter. He currently serves as the Head of Growth, Operations and Strategy at "Dorothy's Writers Hub" an establishment piosed at inspiring and implementing solutions to problems surrounding the literary world. He is also a registered member of the "SprinNG" a platform for Nigeria writers. He hold unto his philosophy of not living his life to please anyone at the cost of his own convenience. His desire is to continue writing stories that uplifts and encourage. View more posts