Loneliness

The loudness of this silence is deafening.

This emptiness in me is frightening.

Flanked by people and still by myself

A lone book on this huge shelf

A giant chasm between me and you

With no bridge to get across through

I smile at you with the brightness of stars in the sky

And I retire to my room at night to cry

I take long strolls to feel like I’m part of this world

Talk to people to convince myself this is my homeworld

“I’m not an alien.” I say to me

“They’re all like me.” I lie to me

Listen. Can you hear the silence?

Do you see how it stares at me in defiance?

You know, its funny how we’re not lonely all alone

How the number of lonely people has grown

My loneliness tried to crumble my being but it’s amusing

Me reinforcing the cement on my walls with sad music

We spent a lot of time together and now we share a closeness

Again, funny how the one who saves me from this loneliness is my loneliness

A companion close to me 24/7

Made this confinement a safe haven

He’s not so bad when you get to know him

You just have to get used to the pale and grim