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  • Seeking For Peace

    Seeking For Peace

    Sometimes I wondered if some things really existed in this world or we just believed they existed. Could it be that we think these things didn’t exist because we don’t always get what we want.


    At times when we seek for love, we don’t usually get the kind of love we always dream of. In some cases when we get that love, we still feel like something is missing just like the last piece to complete a game of puzzle, without the last piece it’s an incomplete game.


    Sometimes we are just like pawn in a chess game, we are sacrificial lamb to atone for some people sins. We never see it coming, do we loose our focus? Or do we trust others too much when we become too desperate?

    We seek for happiness but we get sorrow, hardship, torment in return. Some one once said happiness is free but I always doubt the subject matter based on my instinct or should I call it my philosophy?


    I decided to give the subject a second thought after a conversation with a friend when she said happiness is free but I need to make peace with myself to feel it. “Happiness is free but you need to open thy heart to feel its beauty” – Ogunsola Ayobami Samuel. I guess making peace with myself is a price I need to pay after all everything comes with a price.

    When I was told I need to make peace with myself, those words hit me like a cyclone. I was like aren’t I in peace with myself? Telling me I didn’t have peace with myself is equivalent to telling me I didn’t love myself. But can a man not love himself? Then again I thought about it, if it could be because I never had the things I wish I had. Perhaps! Could that be the reason?

    Like telling me to make peace with myself wasn’t enough, I was asked a shocking I never once thought I could be asked. You can imagine how shocking it could be to be asked “Do you know who you are?. Who am I? That’s a big question but unanswered one.

    I realised that if I really want to be happy with my life no matter what the circumstances may be, I need to make peace with myself. I’m not doing good to anyone by making peace with myself, it’s something I’m doing for myself. People with different belief coexist at a place if that can happen among people then I should be able to make peace with myself.


    But there is a question I can’t find answer to yet “How do I make peace with myself? I hope I get some clues from your comment.

  • My Fears, My Drive

    The reason I force myself to read, the reason I can’t stop improving, the reason I’m so bent on getting better, the reason I want to be rich is because of fear.

    I fear that in the future, I might end up being broke, I fear that I might end up as nothing, I fear that If I do not do the right things now, I might end up regretting it.

    Sometimes I remember the popular quote which says, “In old age, we will regret what we didn’t do more than those things we did.”

    My fears have been my big push for along time, I don’t know where these phobias are coming from but I have a lot of them. Do you know I have a fear of being mediocre? I hate it and I don’t want to be mediocre! Sometimes when I find myself knowing nothing about somethings, I cry inside and I go all the way out to learn.

    Instead of letting your fear cripple you, let it push you to be better! Let it be your driving force! I fear that I might be poor, that’s why I strive to become better and rich. I fear that I might be mediocre, that’s why I seek so much knowledge.




    Try it! Fail at it! Try it! Do it again! At least, you are trying to b better, you would have learned a thing or two. You will be better than a mediocre.

    More like, It’s better to fail at doing something than not doing it at all. What even does failure mean? Not doing anything or learning from a path that does not work?
    Trying things out and exploring your options?


    Sometimes, I feel like it’s because the world does not encourage people to try something and fail at it the first time, that’s why young people do not want to try anything at all, perhaps, if they don’t do anything worthwhile, they won’t be held responsible for failing.

    But today, I encourage you to become better, I encourage you to read that book, eat that food, save that cash, improve that skill set, learn that thing and fail. You’ll always be better than someone afraid to try.

  • I’m A Wanderer

    I’m A Wanderer

    Walkin along the unknown path
    I don’t know where I’m headed to
    But I’m out on my way

    Losing my way to find my soul
    Walkin under the scorching sun
    Sleeping beneath the cold skies

    I appear like a rainbow and
    Vanish like a mirage ;a pool of
    Water on a tormenting sunny day

    A minute here, next
    minute somewhere else, don’t think
    I belong to myself, I belong to
    My thoughts and unknown road

    I’m lost, I don’t know where,
    I belong neither where this
    Road leads to

    I didn’t belong here, I’m just
    a lost wanderer, trying to find
    My way.

  • Gossip

    Gossip

    Gossip! Yes gossip you are universal
    In some languages, you may have an outright
    negative connotation
    But in English you basically means idle talk
    Chat about trival things

    The whole neighborhood may grow gossipy
    With who did this and that
    You may be a humorous chitchat devoid of
    malicious intent
    Fact get embellished or exaggerated

    Humiliation is made the source of humor
    Privacy is violated
    Confident is betrayed and reputation is ruined
    Condemnation takes place of commendation
    Murmuring and fault finding are extolled

    The end result is like mud thrown on a clean
    piece of white cloth
    You did not stick but leaves a dirty and
    sometimes permanent stain behind
    Oh gossip you have been blamed for sleepless
    night

    Nicknames have been given to those who
    peddle in your trade
    Ever heard of Amebo
    Gossip! You survived, alive and flourishing
    Gossip you are everywhere

    Gossip you transcends all cultures, races and
    civilizations
    You have flourished and still flourishing at
    every level of the society
    Gossip! You are deeply part of human nature

    Yet you are not inherently evil
    There is positive side of casual talk
    Knowing where to draw the line
    Between harmless and harmful gossip is the
    key to avoid victimizing others and being a
    victim

  • New But Old

    Life is full of ups and downs, reasons to give up and at other times, reasons to hold on and be strong. But in all, one thing remains constant and that is change. Everyone experiences change at some point in time.The kind of change experienced however is determined by the individual. There are some who change in the negative sense of it but there are some who are blessed to experience positive change.The decisions of each individual determines the resultant effect of the change a man experience. Change in the negative sense is synonymous to recycling the same bad actions of the past.Beginning a new year with fresh hopes is one thing, but pursuing the same with renewed energy and passion is another. The reason why people keep experiencing the same old results as previous years is because while physically, things seems new but in their mind, they are not renewed. They still carry the same old mindset that is responsible for the negativity they’ve experienced thus far and if questioned about it, you see a jealously guarded treasured garbage.If the coming year is going to be productive and positive, it has to start with a renewed mindset ready to take on the challenges, make adjustments where necessary and work hard for the best. Don’t enter a new year with an old mindset. Take time off activities and look deep down to see what needs to be changed!

  • The Land of Ajiun 2

    People were worried, no one could tell where Adio is. Adigun still looked troubled and his countenance was not favorable. Adio had asked his workers to immediately plant cassava stem after the harvest. Everything had seem to be going on well, but why would Adigun be this worried? Adio was already thinking of getting more land to start cocoa farm also once this new harvest of cassava sells well as projected.

    She was at home, cleaning the house, washing her husband’s clothes and gathering sticks to prepare food for her husband when suddenly Adigun ran in seeking for Adio, this frightened Asunke, the wife of Adio who answered in fear that he wasn’t at home, immediately Adigun ran out of the house again.

    Adio had gone on a trip, after he set up his goods in the market and put one of his boys in charge. He went to Itedo to conclude a business deal with his new partners who were willing to buy cassava in large quantities to process into garri. When he came back, he couldn’t understand what was happening and what people were saying. At first, he didn’t know what to do but later summoned courage and went to his farm.

    Ajiun was a village with none of the social amenities that makes life comfortable. People were seen carrying buckets of water running towards his farm. From afar, one could see smoke rising up in the air. The farm had a farmstead with lanterns kept to lighten up the place at night. Inside the lanterns was kerosene to keep the fire burning. Adio’s farm had caught fire and his storage ban and farm land had been up in flames. It took the help of some of the villagers to help put out the fire to the level that Adio met it.

    He couldn’t believe what his eyes was seeing, all his investments were up in flames. How would he start again? How could he ever survive the impact of this wreckage? At the sight of this, he slumped and was rushed to the native doctor who helped to revive him. After he got home, his wife made sure he got some rest, but she also was down in thoughts and was saddened.

    The villagers held a meeting as to how they could help Adio. They all decided to contribute a sum of money to help him revive his farm and business.

    The year after this incident, Adio was up again and his business was gradually flourishing once more. One thing that the Land of Ajiun was known for was their ability to help each other when in need. This singular act has made them the talking point among many surrounding villages. Their population increases yearly because many people get to make the Land their home as a result of this love they shared!

  • 2021 and New Year Resolutions

    The New Year is only a few days away and we all know what comes with the new year-new year resolutions. You might not want to admit it but at the beginning of every New Year, you make a mental note of what you hope to achieve before the year runs out. Some put a name to the list and call them “New Year resolutions” others call it “new me resolutions” while some call it “New Year goals”. Whatever it is that you choose to call it, one thing is certain; you hope to achieve something before the end of the New Year.


    A funny but relatable fact is that many forget their New Year resolutions before Valentine’s Day or sometimes before Easter. This lack of stability and consistency has discouraged many people from even bothering to make New Year resolutions or goals.
    Should you make New Year resolutions? Should you set goals for the New Year? Yes, you should. How do you stick with your resolutions without swaying from them?
    Here’s a list on how you can make the New Year count and not disappointing yourself for not being unswerving;


    1. Make a list. Write your goals in black and white. Place it in a place where you can constantly see it. This is because you want to be constantly reminded of your commitments for the year.


    2. Break working towards your goals into segments. It could be daily, weekly or even monthly. For example, “work out every day”, “read a book a month”, “save five thousand naira in two months”. Make it convenient and a comfortable pace for you.

    3. Don’t set unreasonable and unrealistic goals. You beat yourself up unnecessarily when you can’t achieve those goals.

    4. Keep records of your progress. You get to know how far you have come and how far you can still go.


    5. Inform someone. Make sure it is someone you can listen to and a person who is diligent enough to stay on track.


    6. Find motivation. A reason strong enough to keep you going even when you experience setbacks.


    Change doesn’t happen in a day and is forever constant. Don’t get worked up when you are not meeting your goals. Even if your progress is halfway, it’s still progress. Don’t forget the importance of your hard work and persistence.

  • What If?

    What If?

    Life is full
    of mystery
    no one can give
    meaning to

    What if one day
    You realise the life you
    have been living is owned
    by someone else?

    What if one day you realise
    you have been chasing a
    dream that was never yours?

    What if one day
    the past you
    have been running from
    catch up with you?

    What if one day you
    Woke up realising
    your 50 years is just
    a dream?

    What if one day
    you find out you are
    just a wandering ghost
    Stuck on earth?

    What if your enemy
    is the one who truly
    love you and your friend
    just an hypocrite?

  • Hidden Scars

    Hidden Scars

    In the depth of my heart
    there lies my pain
    the pains I get when
    my emotions turn jagged
    and my inside tight

    Waiting with wide eyes
    my heart hanging in my mouth
    hoping for kindness
    like a child I longed for
    soothing
    Instead I get balked

    Pushing back against pain
    for so long
    medicating with friendship
    yet returns in my weaker moment
    and devastating my mind

    I’ve come to realise
    what endless pain would be
    When I would wake up one morning
    realising I was dead
    buried and forgotten by those
    who are dear and close to me
    but alive and kicking to strangers;
    people who don’t give a damn about me

    I have known pain
    when I go to sleep with it
    every night and seeing myself
    being lowered in my own grave
    when I scream to those
    mourning and burying me but
    no one hears my scream and whimpers

    I’ve never been a person
    to hold a grudge instead
    seeking to understand the
    motives of another

    It doesn’t mean there
    is no scars
    only that I have no
    forgiveness of them
    to forgive I must first resent
    or at least that’s my understanding
    Perhaps that’s how I heal so well

    Anyhow, perhaps my scars
    are my road map
    maybe I’d be lost without them

  • The Land of Ajiun

    It was a calm morning, the sun had already risen, and people were already at their various businesses, it was their market day in the Land of Ajiun. A typical African village buzzing with palm wine tappers showcasing their products for sale, and cassava farmers ready to sell their freshly harvested farm produce. It was a busy day and Adio was very involved with business, trying to make ends meet for his family. The other day, he had already told his friend who was an hunter to help him keep a bush meat for his family to have dinner with on the market day. Surely, it was going to be a busy day and he needed something to reward himself for all the stress he would go through. But little did he know what the day had planned for him differently.

    Alamu, the first son of Adio was also busy. He is a palm wine tapper, and had gone early enough to tap some palm wine for market and for them to take at dinner also. Market has not been so favorable in recent times for him. It seemed as if people had given up the idea of drinking palm wine and would only prefer to take water. Nevertheless he still had hope and kept on giving his best, his father had assured him that once he kept on being consistent with what he does, a time will come that his effort will pay off. Akanni his junior brother has been learning the art of furniture making, getting perfect at his craft. Their father, Adio was a very popular and wealthy man in Ajiun, a cassava farmer who sells not only within the land of Ajiun but also exports his produce to lands beyond who deal more with processing the produce into gaari.

    Adigun, the head of workers in Adio’s farm had been running in search of Adio. He got to market, he didn’t find him, again he ran to the house but never met him there, with the look on his face, it’s as if something very bad happened, he looked so sad and tensed. But where could Adio be? What could it be that is making Adigun run that way? It was unusual for him to be in that posture, once he looks for Adio in the market and couldn’t find him, he would have waited till when he is able to see him but this time was not to be so. It’s like a do or die affair. The Land of Ajiun is tensed. Rumours already spreading.

    To be continued…

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